Broken hearts and miserable starts.

So I dreamt last night...yes, yes I know, other peoples' dreams are mind numbingly boring but I'll just give you the gist of it. So here goes, the first one was of finding my younger sister in my room which in it self  is not unusual, but relaxing on my bed was my friend. I found it strange she was there without me and just socialising my sister. I entered my room only to find that it had changed into another room. So far, so normal(ish). I saw all my mates there socialising amongst themselves and I felt like I was being left out of the loop. Then I saw in the corner of the room a friend sitting on a stool NAKED  as is she was the subject of an art class. Fucking weird as in real life she is a observant Muslim! The dream ends.

Right dream two, again some sort of school reunion and everyone's having a good time including me. Then a close friend of mine turns up but I can tell she's only there to show her face as if to say 'hey guy, look, I'm here! Making the effort!'. Now I haven't seen here in real life for a long time and we have sporadically short phone conversations which are more just quick catch ups. In the dream she makes me feel sad and upset. I've had a couple of dreams about her, they seem to be negative and they make my heart ache. It's like I'm being left behind. She should go as far as she can, I just feel like dead weight now.

 So in the dream, the conversation is flowing but I can see that this close friend of mine is on the phone to her new friends she's made at her new work place. She isn't paying attention to anyone and I start to get pissed off. She ends up talking to the bartender and asks the price of some wine, she's planning to go to see her friend afterwards and the wine is for them. By this time I'm really upset and I run off. I find a room and I just fall on the floor and I sob, Bollywood style. The feeling of unhappiness is so real at this point. I can see that she's come to look for me but I hide so she can't find me. The dream ends. I wake up with teary eyes and I start the day with a broken heart.